Friday, October 09, 2009 ; 3:13 AMY
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Retribution?A couple yrs ago, i used to have this really close guy friend. Let's call him L. He was actually the bf of my friend, A. We were all in the same school but i would never have started talking to him if A hadn't introduced us to each other. But anyhow, the 3 of us started hanging out together and somehow, i became even closer to L than to A.
No. We did not cheat on his gf, A. Neither did we date. But we were very close. We chatted daily on MSN and he'd frequently call me and we'd talk for hours late into the night. There was nothing i couldnt tell him about. He knew every little detail about me, however intimate, and i know about his as well. He was my best buddy then. The guy who was always always there for me. The guy who willingly listened for hours while i cried, and consoled me with jokes and advice. Sometimes when i called him and he was with his gf and so wasnt convenient for us to talk, he would hang up but promise to call me back as soon as he can. And he never failed to get back to me.
Like i said, we never really did anything wrong...except for this: Several times while we were on the phone, his gf A called him, but instead of hanging up the phone with me to talk to her, L would lie that he's asleep or going to take a shower, just so he could talk to me longer. It wasnt really the right thing to do. But to me, it was a really sweet gesture. In those few moments, he made me feel important. And i treasure those moments up til this day. Even though i wasnt his gf, in our secret time together, i felt like his priority was Me. Sweet, sweet memories.
But looking back. Perhaps we shouldnt have been so close behind A's back. How would she have reacted if she had known about L's frequent phone calls with me? How would she have felt if she had known about that night when her bf waited for me to finish work to meet me, while she was still at work? Would she start to lose sleep if she knew that her bf always talks to me late into the night, after she has gone to bed? Would she threaten to leave him, if she knew the intimacy of her bf's conversations with me?
So perhaps then its retribution im facing now...
Though looking back, it definitely felt much sweeter being the Other one. rather than being The one.
