Monday, October 24, 2005 ; 3:52 PMY
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Back...finally...It has been 3weeks...most of my friends who used to faithfully read this blog would have probably stop coming back to check for new updates right?haha...
My life took a drastic turn since the last entry..finally found someone who loves me but im still trying to figure out if im really happy...i really don't know how to explain it...usually i think im happy,but when im alone and start thinking,i will think that actually im not that happy after all...oh well,maybe im just getting used to being attached and pampered...after all,he's the only guy in my life so far who really treats me like his treasure...so can't blame me for not getting used to it huh....can't say for sure where this is all heading but i hope it turns out well...
Went with him to geylang for dinner on wed and then again today with tarwin n sharon..both times i walked past rak's house on the way to the bus stop...again,the feeling is something that can't be put adequately in words...i stood there looking up her block...chacha's room lights were on...and i suddenly had the impulse to call him and juz say hi and that im downstairs but of coz i didn't in the end..that was the place with my most beautiful memories..my refugee camp..my own personal chalet...haven been there for so so long...too long really...miss that place so much..had the feeling of "home sweet home"...but then again not really...coz rak isn't there...but soon she will be...3 more weeks will pass soon...miss you girl....
