Wednesday, April 25, 2007 ; 1:49 AMY
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"If you say goodbye today, i'll ask you to be true. coz the hardest part of this is leaving you"when i first read this, i thought it sounded romantic n sweet..but doesnt seem to make much sense. If leaving this person is so hard, then why still want the goodbye part to be true right?
then i read it again and realised, its talking about me and you.
Sad, yes. But true.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 ; 8:37 PMY
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Phew! What a dreadful day. Wanted to print some notes but had some problems with the printer again..AGAIN. You know, i have 2 printers at home. Not one, but 2! Usually there'll be no problems with them. I can scan, i can photocopy stuff and somtimes print abit and there'll be no prob at all. But come the end of each semesters when i need to hand up my work, POOF! suddenly my own printer goes crazy. Either the ink miraculously vaporised, or the printer just fucking won't print. Take for eg last wed, i stayed up the whole night to do my assignment and finally at 6am i finished and wanted to print. I needed to print 4 pages. Only 4 pages which were all in point form n really didnt require much ink. The first page came out amazingly fine. Then..then...my dear mr printer decided to run out of ink again. That dumb asshole....
Only in these kinda circumstances would i use my dad's printer, coz not only isit freaking slow, you have to manually feed the paper in one by one, and for some reasons the print always comes out faded. But in the end, bobian, i handed up my assignment with the 1st page nicely printed and the rest looking like they went through some tough weathering.
Back to this morning, i had to print 30pages of notes for my listening test tmr. Summary: I spent 2 bloody hours cursing and swearing at the printer to - stop jamming/suddenly printing egyptian symbols/skipping sections of a page so that one sheet ended up with 2 halfs from 2 supposedly different pages, -after every few pages. Well not sure if you know what im talking about, but anyway, i swear..i've personally never seen another printer as stubborn and as problemmatic as this one. To tell the truth, at that point all the stress that has accumulated from the start of this exam period suddenly overwhelmed me and i broke down and just started wailing away. I gave that bloody printer a good trashing as well. Hee. sorry dad!
Ok i've already complained non-stop the last 2 paragraphs. Hmm, actually the real purpose of this blog is what happened after all the tears, screaming and banging. I called my mum up and in tears, told her to help me buy new ink for the printer. Then i also called my dad and told him about his stubborn printer. Well, usually mum doesnt really bother about me much and if i ask her to help with someth, she'd usually tell me off and ask me to do it myself. But recently she has been very nice. Last time when i was sick, she never used to care. Infact once when i was sick in bed, she even scolded me for being lazy and sleeping too much. The past weekend when i was very sick in bed, she'd check on me every few hours, making sure i take my medicine, drinking lotsa water and even ensure i have a wet cloth on my burning forehead to keep the temp down. And just now when i called her, she agreed immediately to help me buy new ink. Hmm..
But the more amazing one is my dad. For those of my friends who have known me a long time, you should know i used to really really despise my own father coz of how unreasonable he was when we were young. But in recent yrs, he has changed so so much, to a father that i can really respect. He's someone i know for sure will go all out for his kids, even if it means its way out of his time and convenience. I spent the most part of last week trying out new violins at different places. Throughout, not only was he very supportive, he drove me wherever i needed to go. This afternoon, upon hearing about the printer problem, he rushed back from the office with a new printer and set it up for me even though he hasnt even had his lunch.
Wah..my parents so sweet right? haha...as the eldest sister of 4 younger siblings, i never used to feel much love at home. But in the past 2 weeks, i realised home is really still the best place. I may be having prob with school and friends but i know i can always count on home. HOME SWEET HOME...
hee k la, really spent too much time blogging liao. Gotta start studying for tmr's exam! tata.
Thursday, April 05, 2007 ; 12:45 PMY
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Woohoo! My last post was 29th Dec 2006!!
I thought no one reads this blog anymore..but yesterday cecilia complained that i never update..then today i saw aimei's comment about me not updating since last yr...haha..it has been more than 3mths since my last entry. Even when signing in to this acc just now, everyth seems so unfamiliar..lol..
Its a thurs today..Hmm, wonder y i feel so tired every thurs. Getting old liao la..cannot tahan school for more than 3 days..thats y after wed im usually drained.
It has been a bad bad week. Not gonna complain much here..think i complain enough to a few friends already..But sigh, its not gonna get better. Infact its gonna get much much worse from here. Exams start next week..major assignments due the following week..then after that will be my recital. I have to memorise 50% of my recital but i haven even finish learning all the songs or practise with the accompanist yet. Im so dead la. I was supposed to perform in another classical concert today but i only found out about it 2days ago! Where got time to prepare and practise with my accompanist??!! So in the end i told the teacher im not ready to perform. Im not even gonna turn up for the concert later.ha.
I really really hate performance workshop class with Frank now. Argh..Im starting to hate the violin and myself more n more. This is the worst thing that can happen when you are a violin major in a music school, studying for a music degree. But seriously, when you have teachers who cant give much constructive comments and only know how to give tactless criticisms, what can i do right? If i've done my best and they still think im lousy..then fine. I admit. Im lousy. So what now?? Probably time to give up..
Before this, i was pretty sure about continuing with the degree yr...but now? Im not even sure i should even attempt to pass the recital.
Sigh..cant wait for all this shit to be over...well but at least there's one thing to look forward to. My shopping trip to Hong Kong in May!!! I think after that trip im gonna be broke la..but who cares..as long as i have fun and enjoy myself there, right? money can always be earned back again ma..
K la, i gotta start on my history proj now...zzzzz...
