*** Loving candies but unloving me ***

Wednesday, May 16, 2007 ; 2:29 AMY

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Pain.
Guilt.
Bleeding.
Giving up.
Pain.
Unable to let go.
Pain.
Smashed.
Tears.
Broken.
Pain.
Torn.

I still miss u. I really do. But its over.
Coz u wanted it that way..

Wednesday, May 09, 2007 ; 12:17 PMY

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There is only so much that i can put in, so long that i can try.
I refuse to give up so easily..i refuse to think it was all a mistake.
So i try and try. Hoping that you may change one day.
Hoping that you may love me one day.
I try to cling on to you, yet you give me nothing to hold on to.
What else can i do?

Hopelessly i've been grabbing on to nothing while deceiving myself it was you
Now i know, i've never had you.
Coz u never wanted me, never wanted me to have you.

I so hate the distance separating us.
I hate not being able to see you when i want to.
But not being in the same country seems to suit you well
Coz it means im 'hidden', leaving you still single n available.

Yeah, so what the fuck is wrong with me.
Mistakes after mistakes.
I just got myself involved with something new.
But ha, problems plagued it too so tell me what's new.
Hmm, maybe the problem doesnt lie with them.
I didnt meet mistakes after mistakes.
Its me. ME.
I AM the MISTAKE.
The MISTAKE is ME.

So we'll just live happily ever after..
In perfect harmony..
What bliss..ha.