Tuesday, March 18, 2008 ; 5:35 PMY
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Grr..its the time of the month again i think. Feeling extremely PMS-y and irritated. At the same time i feel so lost at home now with so much to do, yet totally no drive to do anything productive. But well, i stayed back in school just now to practise violin. :) Not v long..just bout 2hrs..but it was enough to break my arms.
Not surprising, im kinda screwed for this semester. Thesis...recital..creative music project...aural... Sigh fuck it la. I know its my final year and i really really should work hard but im too distracted to get things done. Im so bothered by certain issues that i feel i cant concentrate on any other things til what should be settled, is settled. But then again, i also have no idea how to solve it.
I think i mentioned this in one of my first few entries in this blog..i shall name it "The Frog Story".
Its about this frog which somehow got stuck on this small slippery stone in a fast-flowing river. The poor frog is frantically flipping his limps, struggling to stay atop the slimey stone above the water..He's so exhausted he cant continue anymore but at the same time he cant stop moving else he'd fall into the river.
I was kinda like this frog in my r/s with B. I was stuck there. Fucking tired but not being able to let go..desperately clinging on like it was my only salvation.
Finally, i couldnt go on anymore. I stopped...and then i dropped..my already broken body smashed onto the surface of this icy-cold river.
Injured. Cold. Drifting. Drowning.
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Errr..okie..i guess that sounded a tad too emo huh?
Anyway, on a slightly brighter side, im looking forward to dinner later!
I used to go out every single day but haven been doing so coz of school..so i really treasure moments when i can just hang out with pple dear to me.
I miss shopping, i miss going out n just wasting time everyday, i miss catching a movie whenever i feel like it, i miss staying out late, i miss staying home and watching tv...so many many@!!
Hmm, and by the way, this is a really nice pink huh? Haha..Do you know, my new laptop is pink, so is my mouse. I also have a cute purple-pink bearish forever friends mousepad, along with a bright pink laptop bag that came free with my
laptop. Hmmm...my DS is a nice metallic pink and its casing is pink as well! Lol...
Ok..enough of pink talk..gonna get ready to go out now. tata!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 ; 5:05 PMY
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5.05pm..
The rain is still falling,
The clouds a misty grey like a veil over my eyes .
Times like this, i wonder who's there?
Suddenly, it seems im high up here braving the rain and cold..
The chill runs deep deep into a burning ache in me.
So icy, yet so terribly burning.
But im good, it seems.
This shell has weathered much and doesnt reveal easily..
Though at times cracks appear thru which u take a glimpse.
At times, then more times, then almost all times.
And its then u realise, its all so wrecked inside.
5.19pm..
The rain is still falling.
Times like this, who can be there?
