Saturday, July 26, 2008 ; 4:33 AMY
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I hate waiting. Coz it always reminds me of a time 2yrs back..when i was always made to wait. But then, i was more hopeful. The longer the wait, the more i anticipate. When i finally got what i waited for, i would be so happy and relieved. Its funny how your life just stops while you're waiting for a particular something, and only resumes again when you finally get what you're waiting for...It was the same then. Just that the wait got longer and longer. The number of waits got more and more frequent. Anticipation turns into fear...and finally desperation, when i realise the wait was intentionally done. But then it was too late. The wait that dragged
on more and more had become something that never returned. And since then, i never like to wait anymore.
Esp late into the night like now. When im all alone with only my faithful pink ds and laptop to console me.
Its made even harder coz i cant sleep easily. The slightest thing would bother me to no end and deprive my brain of whatever rest it could get.
Its so hard..being awake in e dead of the night. Everyone asleep except me.
So lonely.
