Friday, December 28, 2007 ; 12:37 PMY
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im sorry i always sound so unhappy here.its not that i do not have happy moments.i do..but they dont last long enough and b4 i can get down to blog bout how happy ive been the past few days, i get thrown back into the dark pit again.
Maybe ive never really left.Maybe all along ive been imprisoned in this dark hole and the only few moments of happiness i experienced were all illusions caused by the sunrays that sometimes seep in and provided me a chance to dream n fly away to a happy land.
But very soon the darkness prevails n i find myself back at where ive always been.
Ive been crying so much this small cell is flooding up. And soon it will rise further n further til i get engulfed by my own tears n die.
If this was a fairytale, the girl would hope that her knight in shining armour will appear n save her.
But in my case, i do not have a fairytale. Just like so many other girls ive encountered recently. Their fairytales shattered by the very person who could have granted them happiness. Thats the power he has-- to make or to break. Poor girls when the latter is done.
So im sorry once again that i dont blog bout happy stuff. Im an unhappy person who has stopped tryin to be happy. Right now im just trying not to feel so sad anymore.
