Wednesday, September 26, 2007 ; 11:40 PMY
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Still feeling emo from yesterday..but its getting worse..
Thought i just needed to tahan til night time and everything would be ok. But instead it felt even worse. I dont know what is wrong. Isit me? Isit you? Or isit just becoz we're both tired?
Somehow something changed overnight but i dont know what it is. The old feelings of distance and hopelessness are back and suddenly i feel that i've lost you all over again..A familiar unfamiliarity between us that doesnt make sense but is there all the same.
I've put in alot and given up even more. Im already drained. At the end of the day im just a simple girl who wants to love and be loved in return.
Is that really too much to ask? Ive already lowered my expectations so much i dont
know how else i can be disappointed. But apparently, its still not low enough...
Everything has been sweet and hopeful for the past 2mths and suddenly we're back where we started.
Really hope this horrible feeling will pass soon. Its making me more tired than i already am.
Maybe im thinking too much..
Maybe we're both tired..
Maybe we just need to wait til weekend then everything will be ok..
But maybe, feelings have changed and things will never be ok again..
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