Tuesday, September 18, 2007 ; 10:42 PMY
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Feeling pretty stressed out now..Had a wonderful experience performing in genting for msia's annual music award ceremony (Anugerah Era) but missed a whole week of school coz of that.
Work has piled up and im having difficulty catching up now. Initial thesis proposals were rejected so now gotta resubmit a new one plus abstract..But im really not in the mood to do it.
Hve been sick more than 2weeks now and my cough doesnt seem to be getting better. You know how its like when u cough so much even ur chest hurts? Sigh..but weird thing is, this doesnt seem to be merely a physical thing. Its not just my throat n my lungs that are hurting..it feels like my heart is aching badly too..to the extent i really just wanna cry out now. Missed bern alot today but didnt meet him coz he had to meet his friends and i wanted to stay home do work. But i really wanna hug him and cry my stress away.
I know i can definitely still catch up but there are so many things to do right now and i dont know which to concentrate on. I thought final yr in school supposed to have less things to do so we can concentrate on thesis n final recital? sigh sadly thats not the case now. Outside of recital pieces, i have so many other things i need to practise n rehearse. Hope there can be someone to guide me along now and help me thru all these..but who is there? I know i just have to somehow struggle thru all these and i'll graduate by next may..but right now, i really do not have the motivation to continue studying anymore.
wo xiang ku dan shi ku bu cu lai...
