Im home alone again. The sky is a threatening gloom about to burst with thunders n rain. Just like how my heart is so heavy its almost exploding with tears n pain. Its a perfect weather to once again indulge in my depression and entertain those dark thoughts of giving up. I know im not. But right now i really feel such a worthless wreck.Problems with bf and work...i know everyone faces them too..but im just so tired now. He always tells me he's tired already n really lost about how to handle this r/s..and now he tells me he needs time to settle his thoughts first before we meet again. And he says that's not taking a break. Its not meh? And he says its coz he loves me too much that he doesnt want to see me suffer with him. ha..sounds familiar? I really dunno what to think anymore. Maybe im just too sensitive about all the things he's been saying to me. Maybe i should try to harden my heart once n for all so i'll never be hurt again. Im not trying to sound emo. Im not trying to exaggerate my pain. My heart is literally hurting and aching now..and its so uncomfortable i wanna cry. Even though i know its not my fault , I feel like physically punishing myself again though i know if i resort to that i'd hurt my closest friends too. But it can be so hard to control..physical pain being the only way to relieve myself from this heartache. The sweet temptation to see my candied blood and be released.. sigh..k sorry sharon. I know u'll slap me if i really do that. It may be a perfect weather to be depressed..but its also a perfect weather to sleep..right? Okay! I'll go sleep now and when i wake up, hopefully Joanne n Edda will be home..then perhaps everything will be ok le.
The Girl
Candy Lim/TangTang
Fulltime Music student
Parttime Music teacher
Turning 23 on 13/11/2007
Absolutely cant do without:
-My 2 youngest sisters (Joanne and Edda)
-My close friends
