Tuesday, September 05, 2006 ; 2:17 AMY
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Is Spore really THAT small??
There are some friends whom i've never ever bumped into outside.
Then there are those i really dread to see, yet not only do i have to see them in school everyday, i've to see them outside of school as well.
Am i just plain unlucky or what? I've been avoiding town area and going to further places like tampines recently. I used to frequent suntec area almost everyday but ever since that last time i saw them there, i would think twice about even going suntec. Looks like cineleisure has been added to the list now. Sigh.
After seeing them today, my friend asked if im ok. I said yes. Not becoz i wasnt affected, but i've been so affected all along that another stab to an already bleeding wound hardly feels anymore than its already enduring.
Is God maybe training me to be even stronger? Perhaps in time to come, i'll have to face some terrible crisis, so all these are just to prepare me for then?? Im actually getting really ashamed about how affected i still am seeing them around. It has been more than 5 months and yet im still like this. Im probably starting another blog soon to separate happy and sad events so friends can only see the happy and not the sad ones.
Whatever initial sympathy has long turned into mockery of my naivety.
Another monday night, followed by a long tue and wed in school. Its already 2.40am but im dreading sleep. Really scared la. Don't wanna have those nightmares again. I feel like escaping from school again but i already missed a few classes last week coz of that and i can't possible do the same this week le.
Hmm but thinking about it, maybe im just lazy and finding excuses not to go to school huh. haa..
