Wednesday, August 30, 2006 ; 12:48 AMY
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Yeah! Finally another tue has passed. Now i just need to survive wed as well and then i can welcome the weekend once again. Had our transcription test just now. We had to listen to this piano piece, figure out the basic chords involved, then compose a violin part over it. Actually we have been doin this similar exercise in class every week and usually i settle it quite fast. But today was a bad day for me. Probably coz i was too affected by yesterday's nightmare so had the nervous feeling the whole day again. Think almost had another mild anxiety attack coz couldnt breathe properly again and my hands were trembling so i couldnt even write down the music notes properly. Sian la. Then whole day felt like puking too but didnt bring my medicine out. In the end i was almost the last to finish and leave the class.
Stupid nightmares. I have been having them every monday night the past 2-3 weeks.
Im actually feelin ok you know. Almost perfectly fine. Then i will have these stupid nightmares again then i wake up trembling and feeling so shitty the entire day after that. What the fuck is with these nightmares man!!
They are those that leave u feeling entirely helpless and exasperated. You so badly want to do something. Yet no matter how hard you try to defeat it, it will always bounce back with a smirk, as if telling me its too invincible for me to hurt it. Sometimes im even denied the chance to attack coz something else will hold me back forcefully and hurt me in return. OUCH. You have no idea how much that can hurt.
