Friday, August 11, 2006 ; 1:01 AMY
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Quite a long day today. Went gym in the morning, then went kbox with aimei and gang, then rushed home for theory lesson, then went to work after that. Tired la. Haven been getting enough sleep lately. Wanted to sleep early last night but in the end was too scared to sleep coz of the stupid rain and the howling winds. Once, i used to have someone who would hug me to sleep every night but now, even when im scared, i still gotta sleep alone in my big room. sigh. I know i should be thankful for all the privacy of having my own room..master-bedroom somemore so i even have my own toilet. BUT, sometimes it can get so lonely. Thanks to cecilia for staying over the other night! Even though we didnt manage to stay awake thru the night, i really enjoyed having you in my bed! Wahaha..sounds wrong..hmm k nvm...try to stayover more k?
And aimei too! Anyway for the next couple of weeks you will be teaching near my house ma..so try to get permission to stayover la k? Then we can even go swimming after your teaching and after my classes! Heehee..
Went esplanade to watch fireworks with yen, jeremy, zy and lisheng on tue. Actually i thought i would find it boring coz every yr, the fireworks could be seen clearly from where i stay. See til sian already la. But it was so beautiful. I felt the kid in me again while watching the splendid display of fireworks. Should have brought joanne there la. But anyway,im going again tonight to see the fireworks! Hee..this time with my sec sch friends and maybe joanne too.
I enjoyed the fireworks that day but not the crowd. It was like V-day without flowers and chocolates if u get what i mean. Everywhere i turn i see couples. Damn sian la. It was hard to purely concentrate on the fireworks without thinking of past memories and imagining someone special by my side. Infact, on national day itself i refused to watch the NDP on tv. When the fireworks started, i was so affected i kept my eyes glued to the comp while wishing the fireworks end earlier. Thankfully, this year's one was pretty short. Well, you may ask, if im so affected by it, then why do i still want to go to the esplanade again tonight? Coz i believe the more im affected by something, the more i should do it and get myself used to it. So hopefully one day it won't affect me anymore. I've tried it and i think it works for me.
Oh ya! Btw, i found out yesterday that spore is actually 41, not 43!!! hahaha...im a lousy singaporean la.
Sigh! Its already 1.22 am and i really should sleep coz need to wake up at 7.30 for gym. But not sleepy yet. Die la, im surely gonna be tortured by trainer tmr de. Then after that i will be aching all over for the next few days. Sobz...
