Friday, June 16, 2006 ; 9:17 PMY
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To all those who faithfully read my blog. Sorry i keep yakking non-stop about tony. About how hurt i was and still am, about how much i miss him and about how much i don't want him to come back. I guess im not as strong as i thought myself to be. Even though im trying my best to live my life as normally as possible. Countdown: 40mins
Just got back from msia. Ate something wrong so suffering from foodpoisoning. Couldnt sleep the whole night coz i was hurting so bad. My threshold of pain is actually quite high but i ended up crying in pain almost the entire night. Wanted to call my daddy ask him to come msia and bring me home but i didn't want to wake him up. Thought of going to any hospital there but i don't really trust msia hospitals..hee...so just gotta tahan the whole night. Poor me, still gotta teach just now even though i wasn't feeling well. Luckily its only one student.
Then just now, i suffered an "anxiety attack", according to the doctor. Was watching tv with Ivy then suddenly couldnt breathe so went to the doctor's. It was really quite bad. Could still talk and walk but i was almost fainting. Thought it was due to the foodpoisoning but apparently not. ha. But "anxiety attack"?? Don't tell me its really coz of him. I knew i was affected by him coming back but i didn't know its to this extent. Sigh. Thought i would be having fun this weekend but can't coz i gotta rest at home. Just took the medicine for anxiety. Hope it works. Coz right now, i still can't breathe properly, my stomach is still hurting, and i think im having cramps as well..Freak la. Maybe its my punishment for cursing tony.
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