Sunday, June 11, 2006 ; 2:18 AMY
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Dammit.Im sooo freaking tired but i can't sleep. Ended up thinking about stuff and crying. Wtf. Right now i can't even rmb what was it that had triggered it. I think basically, i just feel real screwed up. And now, because of the crying, i would have to go to church with swollen eyes tmr. I was just thinking, if i could just control my life with some remote control, i would just delete some people off my life and then it will make my daily routines so much easier. Recently, i've been in quite an irritable mood. And some people just never ever fail to piss me off. Sure they don't mean it and whatever they do actually has got nothing to do with me. Not at all. But just knowing that these kinda people still exist in this world is enough for me to wonder about why they are not kicked out from this world into outer space. Okie. Im being mean here la. But there are really some people out there who can be so shamelessly thick-skinned and insensitive they just ought to be slapped to death. I mean, come on, are they really being ignorant of what they are doing and the impact they have on their so-called good friends whom they supposed are trying to show concern for? Well, try harder. Put yourself in your friend's shoes. Do you genuinely think that they will be touched by what you said or would they just get even more depressed? There are certain things that would best be left out and not emphasized and showed-off if you sincerely want your friend to be comforted and advised. And then there are those bitches who are so super materialistic they may even have no qualms about dumping a guy whose father is dying of cancer and then in just a week of knowing another guy start "loving" him as though her very heartbeat depended on it. Come on la. Do these girls really think they are too good for the previous bf? What made them think they deserve better? Gosh. I know im bitching la. But i can't help it if these people keep irritating me with their hypocrisy and such narrow-minded concept of "love" and how they are sooo at the top they deserve better, and better, and better guys. Wake up la. At the end of the day you are just gonna get fucked to death while realising that you are left with nobody. HA.
Okie. Enough bitching for today. Ahh...i actually feel good now that i get it all off my chest. K, time to try sleeping again. Ta.
