Wednesday, May 24, 2006 ; 3:17 PMY
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I've been feeling so lost the past few weeks, esp after coming back from bangkok. There seems to be totally nothing i can look forward to. I live my life like a carp in a small pond, occasionally saying hi to another carp and sometimes playing among the seaweed and pebbles. So now, im gonna set things for myself to look forward to.
1) I was counting down to his return from china. BUT, i scraped that idea.
2) Counting down 23days for cecilia to finish work, then a few days more when she come back from hong kong..then we can start playing, girlie!!! Muacks!
3) Counting down 5weeks to vivian coming back from australia!
4) Counting down to Rakhee's return. This would have been at the top of the list, just that the date she's coming back is still not confirmed. Sigh. Girl, i think it would be good for u to work in australia and experience more there, but im selfish..and i really hope you will come back. The 2 yrs are too long for me already. Miss u so much ger.
5) Im officially a member of California Fitness..ha..so soon i will have more things to do like going to the gym and working out instead of stoning at home. yeh. Looking forward to a healthier lifestyle ahead. *applause*
6) Stop driving at night. This is actually equivalent to me typing " Stop trying to get myself killed". I was driving around unfamiliar routes in the west last night. I must have been speeding coz the steering wheel was shaking like crazy. I looked down n saw i was going at 120k/h. Okie, its actually not that fast la but i was also weaving in and out of the lanes like nobody's business. And worst, it was only at a traffic junction that i realised i had been driving without my seatbelt on! I narrowly escaped a few collisions, stopped near a friend's house to cry and calm down before making my way home. I actually think its still a wonder im still here. So, sorry to all those i've been having supper with. No more driving for me at night. In case u wonder, my car is full of memories that i haven yet managed to erase completely.
7) Stop making myself cheap and begging for people's company. Yes im quite pathetic but im trying to change that. Esp for "friends" that still exist only coz i still gotta see them around and they actually totally don't give a damn if im candy girl or candy ghoul, sorry if i ever wasted your precious time. We can still have conversations, hang out and stuff, definitely,but only when its CONVENIENT for both parties. You know, so we won't waste each others' time. *wide and fake grin*
8) Spend more time with friends who proved with actions that they are worth keeping and treasuring. Muacks muacks muacks!
hmm, okie..enough things to work on for now. Gotta prepare for work le. Ta!
