Saturday, April 22, 2006 ; 11:37 PMY
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Im at kallang mac doing work again...the last time i came here was in early march i think..with howai and him...that's more than one month ago...hai..i realised nowadays, for every single thing i do or every place i go, i would always try to recall the last time i did that particular thing or went to that certain place, then classify it under "before tony", "during tony" and "after tony"...haha..can't help it la..but then again,i think im not trying hard enough to forget him..each time i think of him, i would just allow myself to think of him for awhile...then i will get upset not just because i miss his presence, but also because i feel so dumb that i still think of a guy like him..hai...i mean, he's ugly...he lies like his life depends on it...he's super immature...he's not dependable at all...he's poor yet he tries to make me poor as well...all my friends and his think he's not good enough for me.....yes i know all these....but i can't bring myself to kick him out of my life completely...yes im much much better now and i know im recovering fast...but if right now he were to want me back, i think there may still be a chance that i may say yes..hai...yup...
okie..gotta try do some work now...havin a super duper bad headache though..think falling sick again..but this time,no one to look after me the whole night le..hai...
