Friday, March 17, 2006 ; 5:54 PMY
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Well well...another week has passed and im still as slack as ever...ha...its already mid march..so its one more month to 3mths of holiday!!! ha..but not to forget, before the holiday comes i still have to go through exams and the agony of staying up late several nights in a row rushing assignments...im sure this sem will even be much much worse than last sem...still can rmb how miserable and tired i during that period of time...hai...well i guess i deserve that for being so lazy!
Have been thinking alot recently about friendships and relationship and stuff....sometimes you get to the point of feeling you don't really need all those anymore..and im feeling that right now. I seem to be having problems in every aspect of my life and sometimes i wonder if it were a better idea to just discard all and start over. And in case anyone is wondering, NOP im not havin pms again..haha...but seriously, who needs a mother who always hurt you with what she says?Cant we have proper conversations without any sarcasm or shoutings? Can't i even tell you the aircon is spoilt without you immediately replyin with : "you think im so free like you to bother about such stuff? Im not like you, i need to wake up early every morning..." She said the exact same thing again when she wanted me to let her use the comp..Hello?Waiting for that few sec while i exit from whatever i was doing doesnt mean i refuse to let u use right?...That bitch...i really hate her so much...
And then, i started thinkin further...who needs friends who are supposedly close to you, but expects alot yet doesnt want to give? I feel like an idiot sharing my life with people and they treat you like an idiot telling stories. Some complain when you are late in updating yet keep things from you, some make use of what you tell them and pretend to be concerned but are really using the available info for their own benefit. Worst still are those who backstab you and try to snatch away whatever precious few things you have. I used to know this girl who claims she doesnt need friends. I used to think she is the dumbest and most conceited person..now i realised she probably has her reasons for feeling so. Conclusion? Keep everything in moderation. Not too close and not too distant is best.
Lastly......well its something im still considering...its either the problems stop or i put an end to it altogether...Anyway, i feel i've been neglecting joanne the past few months and if you ask me, i would say she's more worth my time and sacrifice...Have been bringing joanne out quite alot this week since its her holiday and i really enjoy spending time with her..She's such a dear to me...hopefully Edda would grow up to be like joanne though i seriously doubt it...haha..
Okie...gonna have my dinner now...not teaching tmr so hopefully can get some things done...
