Monday, February 06, 2006 ; 8:41 PMY
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Stressed....and very confused....AHHH!!! My violin exam is this thurs!!!
hai..im tryin not to think about it coz it really makes me scared...its not that i don't know my stuff..i've been practising everyday but im just scared that due to nervousness, i may just forget everything during the exam...worse still, start trembling in fear and end up playing everything in the wrong pitch!!! hai...i even ended up crying while practising yesterday night coz i felt so stupid and dumb...but well, i guess i would just have to practise really hard the next 2days and do my best on thursday.....
Anyway, im confused coz i just read a friend's blog and i have a feeling im the cause of her unhappiness...but what have i done? Or isit really me in the 1st place?Im trying to keep a balance between friends and bf...but am i still a failure in that aspect? I don't want to make anyone unhappy, even more so for my close friends but when i don't even know what or how im doing wrong, how can i change anything? Do i really have to think twice or even trice before every single word i say just so i won't say the 'wrong' things?What kind of friendship would that become then? I really don't know how le.. hai...talking to another friend now about this and she told me to just not think so much for now...yup...think she's right..i should just stop thinking about it....
oh well, im gonna start practising my violin again now...hope things get better...
