Sunday, January 22, 2006 ; 10:26 PMY
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Sunday is church-day...
I went to church in the morning,then went for the afternoon service...i haven attended the afternoon service for so many weeks already.the main reason why i went today was coz it was to be the last 3pm service held in this church building..and next week is the official last time that we would have any service in this place i've been to since i was 10..im really so gonna miss this place and its not just coz its near my house..its all the memories there...i was baptised there,spent many national day celebrations,christmas parties and new year watch-night services...how can i ever forget these? And it makes it so much worse to know that this building is gonna be demolished in march...
Anyway, don't think i ever mentioned here that i planned to stop going to church once they move right?Im my church's music librarian and last month,i finished setting up the library..all the sorting,filing,labelling and stuff..coz i wanted to complete my duties and pass it on to another person once i leave church...hmm..yup..anyway, i changed my mind..at least for now...coz i realised at a time when my bf is trying to get closer to God, i should encourage him instead of backsliding further by not attending church huh?anyway, it was coz of totally stupid reasons that i wanted to stop going and in the past few weeks, i realised its not worth it to lose my relationship with God just coz of these reasons...
anyway,im really glad i went for today's afternoon service..realised that i've been depending on people around me too much...even to the extent that they become the reason for me to go to church...that's so wrong...coz men are men...and no matter how infallible they may seem, one day they will disappoint us and let us down...then what?stop going to church like i initially planned to? That would be an even worse solution then...
Im not tryin to sound holy..but like what i learnt in today's service, we really ought to be going to church because we want to worship Him and also, we need to give glory to Him in everything that we do...in these two areas, i gotta admit i've failed greatly...i've fallen so much that i sometimes feel i can't even get the reception to God's hotline anymore...ha...
anyway, read through my previous blog entries just now, some of it was so awfully written and sounded so pathatic i wanted to laugh and delete them but i stopped myself once again..think i've changed alot in the past couple of months,that's y i feel i can't identify with the writer of some of my previous entries anymore..good or bad i really dunno...but no matter what,all these are part of growing up i guess...yesyes im still in the process of growing up..haha..feel younger suddenly...last thing to share before i end.....afew days ago,me and my bf went to watch "football hooligans"..and guess what?we were told to show our ic at both the ticket booth and at the cinema entrace!!haha...that really made my day coz the show is M18...next time i shall go only to PS for movies and maybe the nice time i should try a NC16 movie see what happens!hee...
